September Is Perimenopause Awareness Month
Monday, September 7, 2026Where Did My Spark Go?
Saturday, September 5, 2026Women Have Testosterone Too
- Energy and vitality
- Libido
- Muscle and strength
- Bone health
- Confidence and drive
- Cognitive sharpness
- Skin and hair
The "I've Lost My Spark" Feeling
Then There Is the Energy Problem
Strength Training Is a Big Deal
Excuses Vs Context
Why Don't I Feel As Steady As I Used To?
Saturday, August 29, 2026Progesterone Is the Underrated Hormone
- Why am I more easily overwhelmed than before?
- Why does anxiety appear when there isn't actually anything specific to be anxious about?
- Why can I be physically tired, but my brain refuses to switch off?
- Why don't I feel as emotionally steady as I used to?
- I begin to realise things that I would previously just let them be; now they suddenly irritate me more.
- Stress seems to use up my mental bandwidth way faster than what I'd like to admit.
- Some days I just have less tolerance for nonsense.
Progesterone Apparently Starts Changing Early
Then There Is the Anxiety
Nothing particularly terrible has happened >> You're not consciously worried about anything >> Yet somehow your body feels unsettled >> Your mind is restless >> You're more easily triggered >> And you can't quite explain why
And Then There Is Sleep...
Having More Context Is Important
But for me, learning about perimenopause isn't really about finding a hormone to blame or pigeonholing symptoms. It's about having more context. Because once you understand that something may be changing inside your body, you stop interpreting every change as some kind of personal failing.
I Thought Estrogen Was Just A Reproductive Hormone
Wednesday, August 26, 2026Did You Know that Estrogen Is Involved in Almost Everything?
Brain fog, difficulty finding words, sleep problems, anxiety, irritability, joint aches, changes in body composition (belly fat), changes to periods, hot flushes, and night sweats.
Take the Menopause Quiz
The Brain Fog
- You are talking halfway through a sentence, and suddenly the word you wanted is just... gone.
- You walk into a room and forget why you went there.
- You read the same paragraph three times and realise that absolutely nothing has registered.
- You know that you know someone's name, but your brain refuses to retrieve it.
Estrogen Doesn't Just Drop Dramatically During Perimenopause
- Why do I feel relatively normal one week and quite unlike myself another week?
- Why does something suddenly bother me when it never used to?
- Why can a symptom appear, disappear, and then return?
How Much Have I Been Blaming on "Getting Older"?
- Tired more easily? Must be because old already lah.
- Brain fog? I just have too many things to remember lah.
- Stubborn belly fat? Metabolism slows down liao lah.
- Easily triggered, irritable? Stress from work, driving, incompetent people...
- Can't fall asleep fast enough? I play too much phone before sleep lah.
The Biggest Shift for Me
Why The Thursday Murder Club Made Ageing Look So Interesting
Saturday, August 8, 2026Retirement Does Not Mean You Stop Being Useful
The Characters Are Old, and That Is the Point
Joyce Was Probably My Favourite
Perhaps This Is What Interested Me Most
What Project Hail Mary Says About Courage, Life, and the Small Things That Matter
Sunday, July 12, 2026Project Hail Mary Is Not the Sci-Fi Movie You'd Expect
I watched Project Hail Mary expecting a sci-fi story about saving Earth from an extinction-level crisis. But what stayed with me was not the science or the mission. It was how the movie explored resilience and the kind of courage that was obviously absent at the beginning of the protagonist's story.
Dr Ryland Grace, the protagonist, is not introduced as a typical hero. Well, this is not a superhero movie. Yes, he is an intelligent and knowledgeable scientist, but he is also reluctant and clearly does not want to sacrifice himself for the greater good. He does not want to volunteer for a one-way ticket mission. He does not initially believe that being qualified means he must be willing to die.
That is why his eventual transformation towards the end of the movie is really meaningful. Initially you could call him a messed-up coward. But his bravery develops gradually, through circumstances that force him to decide what matters most when there are no easy options left.
Courage Does Not Always Begin With Willingness
One of the strongest parts of Grace's character arc is that he does not begin as a hero. He does not give a grand speech about saving humanity (ref: 1996 Independence Day movie), nor does he willingly step forward when asked to risk his life. In fact, he resists the idea because he understands exactly what the mission may cost him.
His reluctance could easily have made him unlikeable, but instead it makes him more human. Most people would probably hesitate if they were told that their knowledge made them useful, but that using it could also mean never seeing Earth again.
Grace's fear is reasonable, and the movie does not treat self-preservation as a moral failure. As the movie progresses, what changes him is not a sudden personality shift. It is a series of decisions made under pressure, where he repeatedly chooses to continue solving the next problem even when he is afraid, uncertain, or physically exhausted.
By the time he has the opportunity to return to Earth, he is no longer the same person who initially refused to sacrifice himself. He has already endured isolation, memory loss, failure, danger, and the responsibility of knowing that billions of lives depend on what he does next. More importantly, he has formed a friendship with Rocky that becomes as real and important to him as his responsibility to Earth.
When Grace realises that Rocky may not survive the journey home, he is faced with a final decision. He can continue towards Earth and preserve his own chance of returning, or he can turn back and save his friend. This time, nobody forces him, nor is there an authority figure making the decision for him, and there is no guarantee that his sacrifice will be recognised.
He turns back because it is the right thing to do. That moment is powerful because Grace's courage is no longer theoretical. He makes the critical decision when it matters, even though it costs him his potential future back on Earth.
Fragile Yet Brave
Ryan Gosling's performance makes this transformation believable because he does not play Grace as someone who suddenly becomes fearless. Grace remains emotionally vulnerable, physically limited and sometimes overwhelmed by the situation he is in.
He panics, doubts himself, gets frustrated, and grieves. And yet, he continues. This combination of fragility and bravery is what gives the character emotional weight. Grace's courage exists alongside fear. He does not stop being afraid; he simply becomes capable of acting despite it.
There is something empowering about watching a character who does not fit the conventional image of a heroic saviour. Grace is not a soldier, an astronaut or an action hero. He is a scientist and a teacher who must use observation, logic, improvisation and persistence to survive.
His strength lies in his ability to keep thinking when circumstances become impossible. When he makes mistakes, he adapts. When his plans fail, he tries a different approach. His resilience is not dramatic in the usual cinematic sense but in the repeated act of trying again.
Rocky Is Not the Alien We Usually See
I also loved the way Rocky was designed and written. Sci-fi movies often rely on generally recognisable visuals when portraying alien life, such as grey or green skin, oversized eyes, humanoid bodies or insect-like features. They are also frequently presented as threats, invaders or predators whose existence immediately places humanity in danger.
Rocky is none of these things. He is not humanoid (well, in all fairness, he does look like an arachnid); his body, environment, language, and biology are genuinely alien. Yet despite those differences, his personality is immediately captivating.
He is intelligent, curious, loyal, practical and capable of forming a deep emotional connection with Grace. Their friendship develops through shared work, mutual dependence, and the gradual construction of trust. They begin as two beings who cannot even communicate, yet they eventually become partners who understand one another beyond language.
The movie makes Rocky lovable by showcasing that friendship can form even when two lives are radically different. This is one of the most hopeful ideas in the story.
Life Is Not Always a Monster
Another aspect of Project Hail Mary that I found fascinating was the way the movie portrayed life itself.
The central threat is not an army of violent aliens. There is no hostile civilisation planning to invade Earth, and there are no giant creatures attacking cities. The crisis is caused by a microscopic life form known as the 'Astrophage' that feeds on stellar energy and gradually reduces the output of stars.
The solution is also microscopic. 'Taumoeba' is another single-celled organism, small enough to be overlooked yet powerful enough to change the fate of entire solar systems because it feeds on 'Astrophage'.
This creates an interesting contrast with the way life is often portrayed in science fiction. Alien life is usually imagined as something large, visible and threatening. In Project Hail Mary, life exists at the smallest possible scale, but its consequences are enormous.
Astrophage is not evil. Taumoeba is not heroic. They are simply organisms behaving according to their biology. One consumes energy. The other consumes the first organism. Neither understands that planets, civilisations and billions of lives depend on their existence.
That simplicity makes the story more interesting because the survival of two intelligent species ultimately depends on understanding the behaviour of single cells.
Small Things Can Change Everything
Rocky says that "life is reason", and that idea runs through the entire movie. Life does not need to be physically large, technologically advanced or emotionally complex to have significance. Astrophage and Taumoeba are tiny organisms, but each one has the ability to change the future of entire worlds.
The same can be said of many of Grace's decisions. His story is shaped by a series of smaller choices, not in a dramatic, heroic way. He investigates, communicates, and trusts Rocky. At the very climax of the movie, he chooses to turn his ship around to save his best friend.
Each decision appears limited to the immediate problem in front of him, but together they determine the survival of Earth, Erid and Rocky.
This is perhaps the part of the movie that resonated with me the most. We often associate meaningful change with large gestures, major achievements or highly visible acts of courage. Yet many important outcomes begin with something smaller, such as one decision, or one piece of information, or one person refusing to give up.
Small does not mean insignificant. Sometimes the smallest element in a system becomes the one thing capable of changing everything.
Doing What Matters When It Becomes Necessary
By the end of the film, Grace has become the kind of person he initially did not believe himself capable of becoming.
He does not save two worlds because he always knows what to do. He saves them because he remains willing to learn what must be done next. He does not return to Earth as a celebrated hero. He chooses to remain on Erid, where he continues teaching and begins a life completely different from the one he left behind.
There is something fitting about that ending. Grace does not need public recognition to validate what he has done. His growth is already visible in the fact that he willingly chose responsibility, friendship and sacrifice when those choices became necessary.
That is what makes Project Hail Mary such a beautiful and powerful story.
When My Patience Ran Out Before the Day Did and Everything Feels Like the Last Straw
Monday, June 29, 2026A Reflection on Parenting, Perimenopause and Emotional Bandwidth
It Started As an Ordinary Day
The School Bag Wasn't Really the Problem
When Your Emotional Reserves Become Smaller
Parenting Doesn't Stop Because Perimenopause Starts
Maybe This Is Another Conversation We Need to Have
The Cost of Staying Well: What Happens Between Healthy and Hospitalised?
Friday, June 19, 2026The Growing Cost of Chronic Disease
The Prevention Paradox
The Missing Middle
What Perimenopause Can Teach Us About Prevention
A Question Worth Exploring
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